Day 22 of Phase 2

Day 24 of a 42 day program
Weight: 205.2

The weigh-in this morning was disappointing as hell. There are no two ways around that fact. Down only 0.2. This is why I didn't want to jump and say I was off my plateau. I don't think I am.

I do have some positive things to report. Today I wore a pair of scrub pants to clinic that I have never been able to wear before. They were a pair that a friend (also a co-worker) and I had bought (matching pairs). She fit into hers, but mine were...well...tight. I could stand in them, but to sit down would run the risk of tearing the cloth across my large thighs. So needless to say I bought them saying they were "a good incentive to loose weight". That was 3 years ago. I have never lost enough weight to be comfortable in the pants. Today, I put them on and was so happy to find they were actually too big. Thankfully they are smaller than the pants I have been wearing to work so I don't look like M.C. Hammer in excessively baggy pants anymore, but I did make it a point to show my friend that I was in fact wearing the pants and that they were too big. Actually, I think I pointed it out to everyone in the office....Even my boss.

Doc asked me how much weight I have lost and I told him about 18 pounds. He smiled and asked if I needed help looking for them (since they are lost). I just laughed and told him, no, that they (the pounds) could stay lost forever and I would be perfectly happy. So yea me! I do think that there is some truth to the adage that if you are not loosing weight you might be loosing inches...I'm kinda liking to loss of inches part.

With that in mind, I am adding a goal to go along with the weight  - I want to be in a size 16 pant by the time this is all said and done. I'll take smaller if I can get it, but I want to be realistic and shoot for a 16. When I started this diet 24 days ago, I was in between a size 22 and a size 24. That is XXL size for the most part. Today my scrub pants were a XL, and for good measure, I tried on an 18 pair of jeans when I got home. Guess what - they fit. Talk about feeling good!

Just for laughs, here is the MC Hammer video "Can't Touch This". Check out his pants and see how I have been wearing mine, just imagine them in black!

With all that positive feelings and thoughts, you would think that I would be in the perfect frame of mind to kick the thought of cheating on this diet right out the door, but nothing is ever quite that easy. Again tonight I struggled with the idea of having just one tortilla along with my meat and bell peppers. The rest of my family were enjoying fajitas with cheese, chips and dip, and here I am with the meat and the equivalent of 1 cup of bell peppers. It was good, and I ate my Melba toast and had an apple afterwards, but still I had to talk myself out of "just one bite" of something that was "not allowed". Maybe that is it. Maybe I want it because I can't have it....Isn't there an old adage about that too?

Dear Kemi,
Thanks for keeping me updated. It has been so great to have your support and know that you are in the same place that I am with this diet. It really helps and I wanted to let you know I am always excited to read what you have written. How did your apple day go? I know by the time my final apple rolled around I was sick of seeing them, much less eating them. Do you do any kind of exercise with your diet? I know my doctor told me to limit the amount of extra calories I burn, but I am wondering if at this stage we need something. Let me know what you have been told and/or think.