Day 10 of Phase 2

Day 12 of a 42 day program
Weight: 212.2

This morning when I looked down at that weight I will admit that I almost cried. It is the first time that I have not seen the first part of the number (the 212 part) go down. I realize that I still lost over 1/2 a pound, and that should make me feel good, but really, given the results that I have been getting, it was hard to deal with. Maybe it was the beef? Nah, I doubt it. There was bound to be a time when the loss would not be what I want, but I was hoping that would occur as I got closer to my goal, not when I still have so much left to go.

So I finally have an answer to the how am I going to feel when I have to do some physical work: ie: mowing the yard. Yep, I mowed today, and survived. Actually I had no trouble at all. I did do some preparation though. I had my fruit with my coffee this morning, to give my body the energy that I knew it would need to get through the work. I was not overly tired - at least not anymore than normal, and I did not have a headache, which was something I was really worried about.

Tonight I will add to my superwoman profile: I walked away from cookie dough. I had to bake 32 cookies for my son's preschool class and more times than I can count, I tried to lift a clump of dough to my lips. Mostly habit, but I swear the little bunnies printed on the sugar cookies are calling my name in sugary little voices: Melissa, eat us, we are sooooo yummy! Yes, I am sure that they are, but if I did it then I just blew all the hard work that I have done over the last week and a half. I know that it probably would not have effected my weight numbers and probably would not have "ruined" the diet. What it would have ruined would have been would be my mental will power. Once I cheat, I know that I will always fall back on it. I can't allow it to happen, not even once. Long story short, No cookies, or even cookie dough touched my lips.

I got a lot done today, however the video did not get done. It is just going to have to wait until next week I think at this point. We will be out of town this weekend (Camping trip) and I will not be bringing my laptop. This will be a technology free weekend, so the video will have to be next Wednesday.

Speaking of the trip. I have already pre-planned out all my food and I think that things are going to be fine. I can't, of course, participate in the marshmallow roasting, or the smores (Damn) but it will all be worth it in the long run to hold strong. The trip is about being with my son and his first camping experience, not about food anyway.

I didn't eat my fruit with my dinner tonight, because I thought I would have it as a snack later, but guess what, I forgot....AGAIN. At least it was not an entire meal this time and only the fruit, but yes, I know this is a trend that I need to get out of. Back to work tomorrow and I think that routine helps to keep me straight.